mystery of love

you won’t know and you won’t believe but you must know how this mystery happening to me and make me so afraid I not believe and I’m very confused for this.
I will relate about instance mystery of love make me afraid until now :
i have girlfriend and she is very love me and me too as she, we always together while we sad and happy, while that I am writing one task of teacher while my girlfriend call me but I don’t know because i didn't hear it because i was doing my work seriously I don’t know if my girlfriend call me because want go to my home because she miss me and she want meet me maybe she call me because she wants me to pick her up but because I don’t know and I diden’t hear it so she goes herself with her motorbike and at that moment the sky was cloudy filled with rain and lightning which grabbed each other but she continued to go alone with her bike and high speed due to very heavy rain and that moment she fell and hit a car and killed instantly on the spot I don’t know all but while she come and until my home and hug me and say I love you and I say I love you too and while my cell phone rung and i picked up it was my phone who rang who told me my girlfriend was in a crash and died on the spot and I don’t know then who was i hugging before and I seen for my room shes not here anymore and i was so scared, i couldnt sleep all night because because i hugged the ghost of my girlfriend and the next day i went to my girlfriends house and she did die, with her body full of blood and cuts and now im still shocked and still dont have a girlfriend till now.